Redefining Me in 2014

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So here's my first blog post in a long while. It wasn't long ago when I used this blog to talk about my personal life and career as a stylist. Today I'm relaunching it with a new purpose, to share my story.

I had my first daughter at 21. At 24 I was marrying my best friend Jonathan, it was our wedding when I first started to become more active. However I was still 24 and had no idea how food affected my body or had no desire to change how I ate. I hired a trainer to get me in shape for the wedding and yes I lost some of the baby weight, but I still not giving me my best. Shortly after the wedding I went back to eating like a 25 year old does and continued to eat Taco Bell, McDonald's, and fried chicken and rice! Over time I started to cook more and as a family we began to eat healthier and better. We started to eat healthy choices, but still made some extremely horrible ones.  Then I got pregnant with Olivia in 2009 and I knew i had to start making some better choices as a mom for myself and my family.

Over the years I still struggled to lose the baby weight gain. I pretty much just said "F@#$ it! I am fine with where I am at and I am comfortable with how I feel." I was constantly finding myself in between size ranges and then one day nothing fit. I remember that day vividly. I was getting ready upstairs in our bedroom and ran downstairs to my daughters' room to take one quick look at myself in their full length mirror. I said out loud, " I am fat and ugly." My 9 year old replied, "No, Mom you're not." Quickly I snapped, "Yes, I AM!" The look on her face was heartbreaking. It was like I crushed the truth she knew, that the on woman she thought was the most beautiful thing ever, was a complete lie. She quickly left the room because she didn't want to upset me and at that moment I knew I had to make a change. I was tired of feeling disappointed in myself. I felt like I let myself down over the years.

In July 2013 I started a fitness/health journey with a coach named Huong Ho. I became inspired by a friend's journey who went through a transformation that blew my mind. She went from a size 12/14 to a size 2 in one year. My friend Jaye has two daughters, a husband, and a full time job. Seeing her balance all this while embarking on a life changing journey made me believe that I too can do the same. I won't lie, I had my reservations and doubts. I remember worrying about all the things in life that I would be missing out: the wine, the cheese, the cupcakes, the sweets, the late night snacks with the husband, and the list went on. I had to keep telling myself that this was only for 12 weeks. Just commit yourself to 12 weeks and that's it. What's 3 months out of your life? This journey hasn't been all roses. There have been moments that I was ready to give in. If it wasn't from the support of my husband telling me that I only had a few more weeks left and how much progress I have made from day one I could've walked away. Throughout my program I remember feeling more energized, happier, and a fighting spirit within me started to burn brighter. I began to see the progress in my own eyes and I was amazed to see what I accomplished in a short period of time. This journey was about eating healthier, cleaner, and to view food as a way to fuel my body and nourish it for the workouts and cardio sessions I was putting myself through.

It's been well over 2 months since the end of my 12 week transformation program and I am still continuing on to live a healthier and stronger life. I'm using 2014 to redefine my life. Thank you for being a part of this journey. Here's to a healthier and stronger 2014!

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