I’ll be real for a minute. I had such a dilemma on whether or not I was going to workout and worry about eating “clean” on this trip. For the past two summers I’ve been on prep mode. In 2013 I was on a lifestyle transformation plan and 2014 for summer I was prepping for #NPCCompetitions. Each of those summers I’ve strategically planned all our trips whether it was for work or personal to incorporate working out and meal prepping. This trip is probably the first in the past two years where I wasn’t focused on that. I needed a slight mental break from having to feel obligated to fit in all my workouts because I was on prep or trying extremely hard to stay 100% on my transformation plan. AND IT FELT GOOD!
I think often times what happens to people when they are trying to get into shape or working towards a fitness goal is that it becomes this pressure and obsession. Then what becomes this drive you once controlled on your own, controls you. That has happened to me several times in my fitness journey and reflecting back on those moments I was stressed out, overwhelmed, burnt out, and ready to give up. Looking back at those moments I realized that the pressure I was putting on myself was no longer because I was trying to work on me, but because I was trying to live up to my previous coach’s expectations of my fitness and nutrition plans. Those were the most unhealthy moments in my fitness journey. I remember texting her that I deviated off my plan or didn’t have the time to workout and all I received was dead silence. Which left me worried about not being 100% on my plan, feeling like I was a disappointment, and completely set back because I wasn’t doing everything she proscribed.
My new coach Michelle Mein, is amazing and I'm so grateful to be working with someone who understands that the key to succeeding one's health and fitness goals is to not deprive someone and to give them an understanding on balance.
Stress can make someone lose their ritual, it can make one give up on their goals. Remember, you're strong, capable, and making these choices to live a healthier life is for yourself, no one else. Just because you want to find balance is not to be seen as a negative, you should view that as a positive because you really want this to be a lifestyle, not just a short term commitment.