Do you ever feel like your accomplishing something in life that you don't know if you quite deserve? Maybe it's that recent job promotion, a new team that you're managing? Or maybe its those moments where you feel like "Oh shit one of these days people will realize I don't know as much as they think I do..." Guess what, you're not alone. I often feel that way everytime I get asked to speak and it’s a something I'm trying my hardest to overcome in 2018.
Last week I was asked to speak at Mama's Making It, a panel hosted by an incredible mom community called Fashion Mamas. Funny enough when the Founder, Natalie Alcala reached out to me regarding the event I originally thought she was inviting me to attend, little did I realize I was being asked to speak. I’m totally blaming my #mombrain and moving situation on this one!
The panelists for this event included Michelle Davenport, CEO of Raised Real and Sylvie Esmundo, Editor of Sylvie in The Sky. Two really incredible and accomplished women and me. We talked about our career journey, what a typical workday looks like for us, and what mindful living means to us and how we incorporate wellness into our daily personal/work life. It was an intimate, relaxed discussion filled with real-life moments shared amongst real-life mamas
one of these days people will realize I don't know as much as they think I do..."
I know that when I'm speaking in front of others I'm in my element, but it doesn't dismiss the fact that the biggest thing I need to conquer is this insecurity I have of feeling "who am I and how did I get so lucky to be here?" As if luck truly had anything to do with it. If you suffer from imposter syndrome, know that you're not alone. There are millions of people including the most successful role models you look up to. And as a note to you and myself, know that where you are in life is not because of luck, its because you chose to put your heart out there. Other people see something in you that’s worth sharing, you just open your eyes to see what they see and you will soon enough.
Here are a few photos from the event. I've got some more speaking events lined up this year and I'd love to share stories with you, connect with you in person, and simply give you a hug! Stay up to date with all of that either on social media or by signing up for my Love Notes.
A few weeks ago I was invited to speak on a panel with Nike x Lead Like Her. And of course I wasn't about to decline, especially since my biggest goal for myself this year was to get over my fear of public speaking. Lead Like Her is this incredible digital platform where independent women tell their stories, inspire to drive change, and build strong lasting connections. Founder of Lead Like Her, Martha Kirby, interviewed me back in May on her blog and its so mind blowing to see how rapidly life has changed for me. It's incredibly wild to read things like "Director of Community/Curation at VSCO" to now speaking about my job title as a future "Internationally Certified Health and Nutrition Coach"
This past Thursday was the panel event which had a really decent turn out despite the rain in SF. It was small and intimate, no more than 40 people which has been the size of most of my speaking engagements this year. A perfect size to get comfortable with and still feel connected to the audience. Yummy salads were hosted by Sweetgreens and mocktails by Clearly Kombucha and of course fun little giveaway swag bag and shopping provided by the Nike Women's store on Union in SF.
The night was so awesome. And every single time I share my story I get so nervous to talk about it despite how open and honest I am about sharing my struggles of depression and how I used health and fitness as a tool to not overcome those dark months. And how powerful of a coping tool it has been for me these past few years.
Many many many thanks to Lead Like Her and Nike for extending this opportunity. Every single moment where I'm sharing my story of overcoming depression and how I manage to juggle a busy schedule while still being intentional about my health and wellness, is a chance for me to feel connect to one person who might be struggling with similar feelings of loneliness and depression. You never know who you'll inspire by sharing your story. Our stories of struggles and accomplishments are both equally important. You can't live a full life when you're only sharing your one sided highlight reel.
If there's one thing I've learned about living authentically in your truth it's that you connect with others and most importantly with yourself on whole new level.
Huge shoutout and love to DJ Umami for spinning the jams and my favorite song at the end of the panel.